All sorts of events have conspired in my life to drive me crazy and keep me from posting. I blame the moon... I mean hey... If it can move the ocean and all, it must be having effects we've yet to scientifically discover and prove... Above slideshow is composed of pictures I took the last week of April/first week of May at Koosah and Sahalie Falls. The falls are located here in Oregon on the McKenzie River, between Eugene and Sisters/Bend. It was a wonderful hike. The woods are so peaceful, so alive, and remind me to be so as well.

Had a bit of a scare. We camped about a mile up an old off-roading forestry road (that no one's been on in years, probably) and in the morning the car simply would not turn over. Of course there is no cell reception way out there. Eventually, after some wire jiggling and climbing under to take a look at the starter, it did start up! *Phew* BUT... Getting on I-5 on the way home, the transmission finally dropped and now Jeep is going to the big yard of junked cars. /cry. I put the engine in that truck four years ago and it has been such a good camping mobile... And of course, within a week of it's death, I spent nearly $500.00 having some minor issues repaired and giving it a tune up with new belts and plugs and wires and even a new valve cover gasket. In addition, I conveniently just paid my insurance 2 months ahead, and in April paid to register it for another year. Doesn't it just figure. /sigh

It had a lot of issues and to be honest I got more than my money's worth out of it by a long shot... It got me to a lot of amazing places, and did so with comfort and gusto. It has been a good ride, Mouse, thanks for the fun times!

Very soon--I promise--will be a new post. I haven't quit blogging, I promise. /grin... Just been busy doing and not taking enough time to reflect. Also, issues at work have me befuddled and unhappy, so I'm trying to keep to myself till I have something nice to say.

...Hope all you Admin Professionals have a nice celebration today--the city I work for decided since I'm temp (although Ive been there nearly a year, now) I don't apparently count as an admin professional, (I guess that BA in Business and Professional Communication doesn't fall into Admin after all? I wodnder what it is I do, then?)...so I'll be getting to enjoy every other Admin Professional's fresh seasonal flowers, while I'm covering for them while they go out to lunch at the nicest restaurant in town today. Nice. I'll let ya know when I get my new job. hehe.

Pictures say a thousand words, better than I can type them...

Did you ever notice how things always seem to hit all together at once? Good things, bad things, it doesn't seem to much matter... I'll be chugging along at an easy pace and my world will be quiet and peaceful for weeks, and then all of the sudden three friends will all call at once and want to do different things--all on this Friday evening. Or the car will break down on the same day the color tube in the TV goes out, just as the hose from the washing machine finally loosens itself from the faucet, unbeknownst to my 15 year old, who will do three loads of laundry before it occurs to him the entire garage is flooding... It just never fails--everything always seems to pile on at once, making this game of life an interesting road to maneuver.

I have learned to take care of myself, I have learned to get myself from place "A" to "B" with little difficulty. But I still can't be responsible for getting someone else there. (Assuming that someone else is a fully grown adult male.)

Some people just have no motivation. No inner drive. And they'll just float along on my wake for as long as I let them. I wish allowing it didn't slow me down so much, but it nearly halts my progress. I can't take care of everything necessary to make someone else's ride smooth for them. It makes me angry to try, it's too much work, when added to my own; frustrates me and makes me wonder why I always seem to feel the need to take on the weight of the world in the first place. I'm just not going to do it this time. I'm not taking anyone else to their destination. They are just gonna have to find it themselves. I had hoped things had changed. I had hoped that my friend would be more in control of his destination now that I haven't been creating it for him for years. Old habbits die too hard I guess... Maybe he'll never sail his own ship. =( That's sad to me. But I have to let sleeping dogs lie if I'm not willing to kennel them and haul them along. It's hard for me to leave sleeping dogs. I worry about them. It's not my job, gotta remember it... Make it my mantra.

This weekend is all about me. I'm taking my dog and going camping with an old friend, and his dog, who my dog will be delighted to see again. I'm really excited about it. Been looking forward to it all week. Today I'm by myself at the senior center, the building is closed for new carpet installation, so it's just an occassional phone call. The day is passing SOOOOOO slowly. Aarghhh! But once five hits--I'm outta here and off to the mountains, and the hot springs that await me there. I'm gonna get in and soak off the stress of the world. (The bottle of tequilla Ima consume first is also going to contribute to the whole shaking off the weight of the world thing... ) hehehe

I hope your weekend goes as lovely as I expect mine to. =)
Be well!

There is a joy in my heart today that is greater than any I've known in all of my years. It's deeper, more passionate, more hopeful, more encompassing. It's going to spill out of me and burst me open, drenching anyone who gets within a mile of me. I can't focus on anything else. I can't maintain a thought pattern cohesively. I can't stop grinning, loving, and laughing with happiness. I can't believe my luck; yet I can. I WILL BE AWARE. This is my mantra, this is my ambition. I will be careful, in the true sence of the word.

You are amazing. I am amazing. We are amazing.
No more fuck you's. Only I love you's.

(But I'll say them on the inside, most of the time, so you will believe them when they burble out unexpectedly.)